Wednesday, April 08, 2009


Some people become desperate when they feel they are in a situation with little to no options. Exhibit A: me.
I don't feel desperate, but I do feel like I'm in a situation with not many options. You see, I went to a doctor's appointment today that I called and made yesterday after a week's worth of suffering. (right now, at this point, a bit of guilt moves in -- I don't have a terminal illness or disease, so I feel guilty for even speaking of my small ailments in comparison) I thought I was having a bout with allergies like many people are right now. No, not the case. I have a sinus infection. I've been told by ear,nose, and throat specialists (many years ago) that I have chronic sinusitis. No shit. This past fall, after being on many rounds of antibiotics and being sick for months, I was told the same thing again by my family doctor. I agreed that, yes, I am aware that I have had issues with sinusitis in the past. Yes, we could take an aggressive antibiotic approach. Yes, I finished the medicines. Low and behold, here we are again at this juncture. Long, long ago I was told (e,n,t docs) I could either have sinus surgery (with no guarantees), or deal with it. I chose to deal with it. I have been choosing to deal with it for many years. I'm sure I'm resistant to medication now, as I was told I would be. So, I hesitate to go to the doctor to get prescriptions of antibiotics. Nonetheless, I get to a point where I don't function well -- wanting to cry from feeling like garbage, not wanting to get up and go to work feeling like shit, not having my usual appetite, whining, wanting to live in sweats and sweatshirts, get the idea. Once I get to that point, I go to the doctor. Same old song and dance. No options.
Pisses me off!


Hit 40 said...

You know what... I was also in your position with vertigo a while back. I will probably at some point maybe mention it on my blog. But, not yet. I researched and goggled my veritgo. Called several phone numbers that researched vertigo. Got a phone # of a doctor that was suppose to be the best. He was. It was definitely more than vertigo. I am on meds for my problem now. I am much better. My point... please try another doctor. DO NOT TELL THE NEW DOCTOR that you have seen a lot of others. Maybe, just mention your current doctor. Let the person know that you are at the end of your rope as you did on your blog. And.. maybe a tear. I have found (unfortunately) that when you cry they honestly believe that you are in trouble. SO -IF YOU FEEL LIKE CRYING LET IT OUT!!! I hope that I didn't scare you. I just really really understand.

Brenda said...

OOOOoooooo. I've struggled with the sinus infection stuff. I don't have allergies, so I do okay when everything blooms, but if I don't catch a runny nose in time...well, you know how that feels. Like if your head would just expolde, you'd feel sooo much better. And ear infections as an mercy. Hope you get some relief soon.

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