Saturday, January 30, 2010


Today I was sitting on the couch watching VH-1 Storytellers featuring John Mayer. He was playing his guitar and I was just chilling out. Then Mak's dog, Maddie, jumped up onto the back of the couch to look out the window. As she did, she moved the vertical blinds. When she did this with her tiny head, the blinds parted enough to allow the brightest ray of sunshine into the living room right on my face. I could feel the warmth of the ray penetrating into my pores, making me smile. It's been a long time since I felt sunshine on my face. I tilted my head back and basked in the sunshine, allowing the blinding rays into my closed eyes. It felt great. I can't wait for summer.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

John 12:25

"He who loves his life loses it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life."

Thursday, January 21, 2010

five and ten

I am being nickel and dimed to death. I seriously cannot keep any money in my checking account. Moreover, I don't even have a savings account. I am flat broke as some would say. And it is taking its toll on me mentally, physically, and spiritually. I am saying my prayers, but it is difficult to get past this right now. The enemy wants us to feel isolated, which is easy for him to do right now in my case. I do feel isolated. I am trying to trust that God has the ultimate plan for me, and I must stick to being faithful and obedient. That's hard to do, though. Sounds great when it is said, but when it is being done, it is a different story.
In brighter news, my friend is pregnant with her third child. She and her husband have been trying to have another child since 2008 with a couple of miscarriages in that time period. I am so happy for her. She is being very cautious about telling others because of the miscarriages, so I was one of the first ones to know. I'm excited for her and I hope everything will turn out alright. She deserves it. Holding a baby in your arms is one of the most precious things!
This rain is killing me. I must go out in it several times to pick up my daughers from this or that, and it is miserable. I wonder if it will all freeze tonight? A two hour delay would be wonderful!!!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Go Big Blue

Colts win!!! At first, I was very anxious watching the game. It was three to three and we were not looking that great defensively. We had a few three and outs which bothered me; it made me a little shaky. Could we really pull this off? Were we cold and rusty like the analysts said we were? Then, as usual, Manning got it in gear and pulled the offense out of the rut. We started making plays and moving the ball downfield. We scored while the Ravens did not - makes it pretty profitable. So, the Colts win their first playoff game of the season. Onto next week we go, thank goodness!
I want the Cowboys to beat the Vikings today. That would put the icing on the cake.

Thursday, January 07, 2010

Snow Day

Today is our first day out of school because of snow! I have a migraine and have been battling it since yesterday. The only way to describe it is to compare it to someone hitting you in the head with a baseball bat. It kind of knocks you silly, you can't concentrate, and your head is pounding. No stopping for mom, though. I still have to clean up after everyone. Not happy about that, let me tell ya.

Tuesday, January 05, 2010


I'm so thankful for my mom's sobriety.

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Not Ready for This

I'm not ready to go back to school. If I could just work part time during the week, that'd be alright. I don't want to get up early. I know there have been studies stating that middle and high schoolers learn better when they sleep in. Let's run with that! Let's start at 10am! I would work later in the evening to compensate. PLEASE!!! Then, to top it off, to think that we really don't get another break until Spring Break. Wow. That's a long stretch of time. I'm dreading it.