Wednesday, May 28, 2008


It is difficult to know exactly how much friends mean to us unless there is a situation when those friends aren't around anymore, or we see very little of them. As I get older, I have come to realize that friends have so much value and add so much to people's lives. The reason I know this is because, unlike 15 years ago, my friends are essentially non-existent. Sure, I have a few people whom I talk to from time to time, but not the type of friends that I simply "can't live without" talking to on a daily/weekly basis. You know, the kind of friend that you have to call no matter what hour of the night to tell them a brilliant idea you just had. Or the type of friend that you call and simply weep, them knowing what is wrong without you even saying a word. The type of friend who you can shop with and not kill one another. The kind of friend you can pick up when they are down just as quickly as they can pick you up. I miss having the kind of friend who just stops by for the heck of it, without calling first. I miss having a friend who can listen to the angst of motherhood without judging you, seeing you as a horrible mother. I miss the friend who relishes in MY children's achievements right along with me and vice versa. I often wonder: how can I go through the rest of my life without a friend like that? I am missing out on so much. At the same time, where I am in my life right now, I'm not sure I would be the kind of friend someone else needs. (if that makes ANY sense) I'm not sure I can commit to offering all of that. Probably why I am friendless, I'm thinking.


Melody said...

I know exactly what you mean. As an adult there really has only been one person in my life that was that kind of friend. I always say a friend that will go to Wal-mart with you just for the heck of it.

Unfortunately that friend also was sleeping with my husband (ex).

I yearn for someone to chat with, laugh with, bitch with and just be.

Brenda said...

Ditto. I had a friend who would come over and clean my toliets so we could go shopping. I miss that. She moved. I wish I had a friend like that today. Sometimes I feel so isolated.

Angie said...

Oh, honey, know how you feel. Maybe we are all going through mid life crises. We have friends for seasons, years, and some are for life. You ALWAYS have that friend in me forever. I have always loved you and had some of the most memorable times in my life with you. You are a wonderful mother, this I'm sure of. Don't doubt yourself. I know I do too. How can we love our families so much and be so involved and yet be so lonely? I've asked myself that same question lots, especially recently. ;) Ang